Category Archives: Grief and Loss

the thing I thought I’d never do {or, the core cry of all my soul-cries}

The thing about coming ridiculously alive inside is that the more His life and freedom course through to every last corner of my soul, the more I feel afraid. I know the verses, too, about how God has not given us a … Continue reading

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When buds are breaking

I walk alone by the river to clear my head after a long day. Well, that, and to burn off a few of the calories in that Chick-fil-a cookies ‘n cream shake I had for dessert tonight. That dang shake … Continue reading

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A broken piece of my story, and one thing that scares me

The dream is poignant. Terrifying. We’re in Kansas City, and an unnamed social worker has located some distant member of Maia’s biological family — a great grandmother, maybe? — who wants to raise our daughter. And somehow, despite our very finalized, … Continue reading

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In which I take a deep breath and share… {#oneword2015}

Tears burn the backs of my eyes as I open my WordPress “Create New Post” page this afternoon. I’ve mentioned it before, but it’s what happens to me more often than not when words are ready to be given voice. They … Continue reading

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One Thing I Know for Sure {on living soft under pressure}

It’s 7 degrees outside tonight with a forecast low of negative 4, and the snow falls still — these flakes so fine they’re almost microscopic. It’s been falling most of the day, and I’m thankful tonight that the snow’s light enough … Continue reading

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In Which I Try and Break Through the Fog of Transition

Where do you start when it’s been weeks since you’ve written and your entire life has been flipped upside down during the days on end of writerly silence? This move has been the best kind of change, but my goodness, it has … Continue reading

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Uncovering Sacred Flames {and Other Thoughts Upon Turning 34}

Thanksgiving Day dawns peaceful in our household. We hang around in our PJ’s for hours, all of us reveling in the relaxed pace of our morning, and in Isaac’s thorough enjoyment of the Macy’s Parade. It’s the first year he’s really … Continue reading

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When the Waiting Might Possibly Never End

It’s the 7th of November, and today marks a full week of silence in this space. The last few days, this flicker has grown inside me — the desire to birth a piece of my soul here — but I … Continue reading

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Day 13: Two Ways We Are Surviving Loss and Limbo

Happy Monday! A quick note to you, friends, before I share my Day 13 post with you: To those of you who commented, “liked,” shared, and even just quietly listened to my heart poured out in the song I shared … Continue reading

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Day 8: Extending Our Roots and Expanding Our Hearts

I wake up this morning after 10 & 1/2 much-needed hours of sleep. While I miss my family and am still feeling sad over the loss of my sweet Grandma, it also feels good to be back in our own … Continue reading

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