Category Archives: Grief and Loss

on living in the uncomfortable tension {or: all the stuff I didn’t say yesterday}

Hey, my friends, I gotta say this first: Your responses to my post from last night, both here and on my Facebook page, have been such healing balm for both Stan’s and my hearts. I’m just undone. {Quick note: If you … Continue reading

Posted in Freedom From Perfectionism, Goodness of the Gospel, Grief and Loss, Learning Authenticity, Marriage, mental health, misc. walking with Jesus, Parenting, special needs parenting, Uncategorized | 4 Comments

Some Stuff I Haven’t Told You {in which I get real and update you on our boy}

Isaac’s anxiety is more pronounced these days. It’s not quite as intense as it was a year ago, but it’s leaning somewhat in that direction lately. Did I ever tell you guys what last summer was like for us? Bless my … Continue reading

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If Your Heart Hurts this Mother’s Day {a few things I’d say if we could do coffee}

I awake early to sit here and wait in the predawn quiet, my littles still snug in their beds, and a hundred or so passions burning all at once in my soul. And out of those hundred burning thoughts, this … Continue reading

Posted in adoption, Celebrations, Grief and Loss, misc. walking with Jesus, Parenting, Uncategorized | 15 Comments

on epic beauty, searing loss, and a wholehearted life

I’m not planning on writing Sunday evening when I make my way back from my walk by the river and flip open my li’l Mac on the table at “my” Starbucks. But for the first time in a solid month, words flood … Continue reading

Posted in Attending to His Presence, Encountering God in the Beautiful, Encountering God in the Messy, Family Moments, Grief and Loss, Learning Authenticity, misc. walking with Jesus, Parenting, special needs parenting, Uncategorized, wholehearted living | 7 Comments

special needs parenting is hard. sitting still is harder.

The on-hold music goes quiet at the precise moment that I lose my cool. The kids have been chasing, climbing, pushing — mostly laughing but occasionally crossing the line between roughhousing and fighting, for a solid 15 minutes, and I’m not sure what I’m thinking, … Continue reading

Posted in anxiety, Attending to His Presence, Grief and Loss, Learning Authenticity, Marriage, Ministry, misc. walking with Jesus, Parenting, special needs parenting | 15 Comments

A Quick Update (or, the one thing that’s more real than my fear)

It’s been in the 50’s and pouring down rain for 2 days in a row. Typically I would be head-over-heals for this kind of Autumn weather (boots, flannel, sweaters — you know the drill). But hauling my two littles around … Continue reading

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On absorbing beauty and going to the park

The mountains. Y’all. They are balm to my soul like I can’t describe in words. But watch me try. I spent this past weekend up in Allenspark, CO with a group of 30 or so precious women from our church … Continue reading

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Cracking the windows open a little wider {in which I fill y’all in a bit more on what’s up with our fam}

I sit outside tonight at the Starbucks down the street from our apartment complex, and at 6:45 PM I’ve already rolled the sleeves of my cozy flannel shirt all the way down. The Colorado air is nothing short of perfection … Continue reading

Posted in Attending to His Presence, Community, Encountering God in the Messy, Family Moments, Grief and Loss, Learning Authenticity, misc. walking with Jesus, Parenting, special needs parenting, Uncategorized | 11 Comments

the thing I thought I’d never do {or, the core cry of all my soul-cries}

The thing about coming ridiculously alive inside is that the more His life and freedom course through to every last corner of my soul, the more I feel afraid. I know the verses, too, about how God has not given us a … Continue reading

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When buds are breaking

I walk alone by the river to clear my head after a long day. Well, that, and to burn off a few of the calories in that Chick-fil-a cookies ‘n cream shake I had for dessert tonight. That dang shake … Continue reading

Posted in Attending to His Presence, Confidence in God, Encountering God in the Messy, Freedom From Perfectionism, Grief and Loss, Learning Authenticity, misc. walking with Jesus, One Word, Presence | 6 Comments