Category Archives: Encountering God in the Messy

A broken piece of my story, and one thing that scares me

The dream is poignant. Terrifying. We’re in Kansas City, and an unnamed social worker has located some distant member of Maia’s biological family — a great grandmother, maybe? — who wants to raise our daughter. And somehow, despite our very finalized, … Continue reading

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One Thing I Know for Sure {on living soft under pressure}

It’s 7 degrees outside tonight with a forecast low of negative 4, and the snow falls still — these flakes so fine they’re almost microscopic. It’s been falling most of the day, and I’m thankful tonight that the snow’s light enough … Continue reading

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Uncovering Sacred Flames {and Other Thoughts Upon Turning 34}

Thanksgiving Day dawns peaceful in our household. We hang around in our PJ’s for hours, all of us reveling in the relaxed pace of our morning, and in Isaac’s thorough enjoyment of the Macy’s Parade. It’s the first year he’s really … Continue reading

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Day 21: All Good Things Cast Shadows

Monday morning comes early. So early, in fact, that I’m nearly unable to keep my eyes open as I try to drag thoughts out of my head and give them air in my morning pages. I scribble ’round and ’round … Continue reading

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Day 4: On Nostalgia and Grieving Authentically

On Thursday morning, the kids miraculously sleep in till 7 AM. I wake up to Maia’s still-sleepy chattering from across the hotel room in her pack-n-play. I breathe a sigh of gratitude for the almost-normal amount of sleep, quickly grab … Continue reading

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The Invitations in the Crashing Down

I didn’t write at all for two weeks. No words scribbled in a journal; no thoughts pulled up from my depths and laid bare on my computer screen. And while I have been more consistent about spilling randomness and guts … Continue reading

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In Which I’m Awkward and Afraid, but I Publish Anyway

I find myself pressed heavy into the couch on Thursday night, heart and body a thousand pounds of grief. I text a close friend in Colorado, pour out my heart to her because Stan’s at work tonight and I need … Continue reading

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God’s Not Cruel {On Simultaneous Wrestling and Trust}

I sit down to write on Saturday night, and I don’t know how to say what I need to say. It’s dusk and the temps are dropping just a bit, and I’m perched with my laptop on our back deck, … Continue reading

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In Which Change Happens Fast and Emotions Are Mixed and Swirling

I’ve escaped to Starbucks with my husband’s blessing for a quick evening alone. Left the to-do lists and boxes at home because holy cow, I am desperate for some room for my soul to breathe. Because– did I mention we’re MOVING?! Y’all, … Continue reading

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Unedited Thoughts on Our Life in Limbo

Our neighbors gradually clutter [read: trash] their front porch. But when the mess spills over into their yard and driveway, the chaos begins to advance much more quickly. Torn apart box springs and smashed TV’s and an old fish aquarium litter … Continue reading

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