Category Archives: Encountering God in the Messy

Every Side of His Face

Running shoes on and earbuds ready to roll, I step out my front door. It’s late June, and the evening air is muggy for my beloved, typically-dry-ish Colorado. Instrumental piano music is my soundtrack for my workout time tonight. It … Continue reading

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on epic beauty, searing loss, and a wholehearted life

I’m not planning on writing Sunday evening when I make my way back from my walk by the river and flip open my li’l Mac on the table at “my” Starbucks. But for the first time in a solid month, words flood … Continue reading

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on anxiety and other “less-than-spiritual” realities

I’m jolted awake in the middle of the night. I don’t know exactly what woke me, but I do know my heart is pounding so fiercely that for a moment I wonder if it might collide with my chest wall hard enough … Continue reading

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I want to tell you about the good things.

It snowed last night. Big, wet, gorgeous flakes, of which I just now realized I haven’t taken one single picture. Annnnnd, bam. Just remedied that little issue. Here you go: Though my iPhone camera doesn’t do it justice, this is the view … Continue reading

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A Quick Update (or, the one thing that’s more real than my fear)

It’s been in the 50’s and pouring down rain for 2 days in a row. Typically I would be head-over-heals for this kind of Autumn weather (boots, flannel, sweaters — you know the drill). But hauling my two littles around … Continue reading

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On absorbing beauty and going to the park

The mountains. Y’all. They are balm to my soul like I can’t describe in words. But watch me try. I spent this past weekend up in Allenspark, CO with a group of 30 or so precious women from our church … Continue reading

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Cracking the windows open a little wider {in which I fill y’all in a bit more on what’s up with our fam}

I sit outside tonight at the Starbucks down the street from our apartment complex, and at 6:45 PM I’ve already rolled the sleeves of my cozy flannel shirt all the way down. The Colorado air is nothing short of perfection … Continue reading

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the thing I thought I’d never do {or, the core cry of all my soul-cries}

The thing about coming ridiculously alive inside is that the more His life and freedom course through to every last corner of my soul, the more I feel afraid. I know the verses, too, about how God has not given us a … Continue reading

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When buds are breaking

I walk alone by the river to clear my head after a long day. Well, that, and to burn off a few of the calories in that Chick-fil-a cookies ‘n cream shake I had for dessert tonight. That dang shake … Continue reading

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A broken piece of my story, and one thing that scares me

The dream is poignant. Terrifying. We’re in Kansas City, and an unnamed social worker has located some distant member of Maia’s biological family — a great grandmother, maybe? — who wants to raise our daughter. And somehow, despite our very finalized, … Continue reading

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