Belong: In Which I Beat For Eternity


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Belong

Life moves in this surreal, slow motion dance these days, as I pack boxes and wipe surfaces and faces and take load after load to Goodwill.

Tonight I watch the sky as I drive to meet a dear, long-time friend for one last coffee date before we move. Rays of sun pierce clouds and I think of how Heaven is my witness to this season. How my Father is the One who’s intimately acquainted with my heart, sees every emotion and deeply knows them all, even the ones I can’t put words to in this season.

And oh, there are so many of those.

My friend and I chat over a Starbucks table, then we pick up and drive down the street to a local park where we walk laps around the lake. We talk church life and parenting and our hearts relative to it all. She’s known me forever, this friend. Like 12 years worth of forever. Been witness to all my emerging and becoming.

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Yet I drive home aching. Lonely, and this void isn’t one that this friend or any other could fill, though for a few minutes I let my mind wander to Colorado, wondering if when we’re there I’ll feel a deeper sense of belonging than I do here.

I pull into the driveway, breathe in the 10:30 pm Kansas City humidity, look up through the haze at the nearly full moon and I’m reminded that this longing for a place my heart can nestle down into, spread out, call home? It’s a Divine gift. It’s an echo carved into my soul and it’ll never be totally filled. Not on this side of Heaven, anyway.

Eternity.

Eternity.

Eternity.

I beat for it, ache for it, pound for it, cry for it…

Belong to it.

His eternal, invisible, all-sufficient heart that is my home.

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Linking up with Lisa-Jo and the 5 Minute Friday crew because this word just drew me in tonight… and because I love writing in community with these precious ladies.

 

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20 Responses to Belong: In Which I Beat For Eternity

  1. Denise says:

    Isn’t it great to know that we belong to God?! Helps to make this life livable :) Blessings!!
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    • danalynnb says:

      Denise – yes. It’s the *only* thing that keeps this life livable. Bless you – so glad you stopped by.

  2. This was just amazing, Dana. You write so beautifully. “Been witness to all my emerging and becoming.” – I think that was my favorite line in the entire post. My prayers are with you in this new journey ahead of you. I’m not far from you now (Jefferson City) so I will remember to breathe in some of that humidity when you’ve left it behind. ;) Blessings!
    Jennifer Frisbie recently posted…Five Minute Friday – BelongMy Profile

    • danalynnb says:

      Jennifer, thank you so much for your words here, and for your prayers. ::Waving to you:: from up here in KC. :) Yup, breathe in that humidity, sister. :) Ha…

  3. lisa says:

    This is just beautiful. Yes we belong to Him for eternity! And that is the best news. Thank you for sharing!
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  4. This is lovely. We do long for that city with sure foundations built by God, don’t we! And it is in those goodbye moments and wondering what belonging will feel like again after change and transition that we value that future day all the more.

    I could so identify with your friend and how you described your relationship. I’ve got a dear friend – coffee, walking, me growing and changing and her being not just the witness but the encourager. I miss not living next door to her any more… so much.
    richelle @ our wright-ing pad recently posted…Five Minute Friday ~ Blessed to Belong, right here… right now…My Profile

    • danalynnb says:

      Oh, Richelle, I hear you on missing your friend. Oh I just ache for you, with you. May Jesus fill in that gap for you, friend. Hugs and blessings to you.

  5. Ruth says:

    I’ve done the same thing – stare at a big moon alone, feeling small and lost with a huge ache in my heart for love and security. Your words brought that to mind again… and the sense of Presence that did come eventually – we ache for Him. It’s times of emptying like transitions of any kind that really bring this into focus. Blessings on your move!
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    • danalynnb says:

      YES – you nailed it, Ruth. Times of emptying like transitions that bring this onto focus. Holy cow, yes. The longing is so acute. SO acute. And yet so sweet. Thanks for deeply getting my heart, for giving me words to further articulate it. What a sweet blessing.

  6. Ginger says:

    Good stuff- what a great thing to belong to-all of us made for eternity! Thanks for sharing. Praying for the transition, Dana!
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  7. Ugh…I’ve had those moving days as well. I pray you sense His nearness to you as you journey this part of the path. Praying you make some great connections where you can have that sense of belonging! Hugs!

  8. Katha says:

    this is beautiful! i guess we need these moments of longing sometimes to realize how much we belong somewhere else. happy friday to you!

    • danalynnb says:

      Yes – the longing is a gift to point us and provoke us to lean into His heart. Happy Friday to you too, Katha. Blessings.

  9. Lori Harris says:

    So excited for you as you enter a new chapter in your story.
    And as always, beautifully written.
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  10. Amy says:

    I think true peace comes once we do realize that we do fully belong to Him. Just to know that His has us – today, tomorrow and always.

    I have been so blessed to watch (from afar of course) your journey of giving in to Him and move when and where He leads you. I can’t wait to see more.
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